So I couldn’t sleep this morning and I thought I would get up and write. Yesterday was a roller coaster in so many good ways! I have been following several people and reading there blogs. The month of November there were some amazing posts! I was very inspirational! Up until this point I have felt a lot of shame from my disease. Not to say I don’t still…. I am working on that. I have decided to be positive and do something instead of just letting Crohn’s run my life.
My first blessing yesterday was my Dad passed away and my inheritance is not going to effect my Disability. This was a big weight lifted for me and my mom.
The second thing was I decided to start a Team for Team Steps. I worked on it yesterday and posted my things on FB for all my friends. Of course one of my best friends was the first to sign up! I felt so loved in that very moment. We had not talked about it but I knew today was the beginning of Crohn’s and Colitis Awareness Week. My neices husband also has Crohn’s.
The third thing was my Dad on some commercial property that my mom is unable to take care of so she decided to sell. Yesterday it sold!!! She was in tears.
The fourth thing is after many years December 4th will be the start of a new Crohn’s Group! I can actually meet people who get it!
I feel so overjoyed with emotion. Depression is such a huge part of my life. It was really nice to have a good day mentally! Hopefully the physical will come.
I don’t think you have to wait for the New Year to set those goals/resolutions. We just have to do it. Only we can change us! It is hard because we struggle emotionally when we are struggling physically. Through these blogs I was able to find the positive! I just want to hang on to it!
I am so new to this but I wanted to share all these amazing blessings that God gave me and my family yesterday! Thanks for listening.
So I am fairly new to blogging. I started then I really didn’t know if I could do it. Over the past month I have been reading other peoples blogs. I have been alone more than usual and as I am sure you all know that gets you in your head. On top of my Crohn’s I also have RA. It decided to rear it’s ugly head! My knee was swollen a little…then I woke up and couldn’t walk. I can usually take the pain but it became to much! I of course called my Rheumatologist and he said go to the ER!!! Something I truly wanted to avoid however I went and got pain meds and steroids!! It is doing better now!! My body seems to always choose holidays to act up. Not sure why this is but I am pretty sure it has some type of radar. LOL Anyway none the less Thanksgiving was good! This was my first Thanksgiving since my Dad passed last December. I know I am somewhat rambling or so it feels that way. I guess I realized just how thankful I am! Yes I have Crohn’s. Yes it sucks! Life could be worse and I have had alot of time to reflect and think about it. It isn’t always as bad as some days, so on those days I take full advantage. In some ways if the Crohn’s is under control the RA isn’t so bad. I guess I just know so many people that have it so much worse even though this is bad.
As I am sure most of you know living with a chronic illness can be lonely. I know for me I found out real quick who my “true” friends are which are very few. I do feel so blessed by the friends I do have in my life. I know that if they could they would move Heaven and earth to make me well!
I have a friend who is in my life that we have been through a lot together. She has watched my daughter grow-up, we went to her wedding on a cruise for 7 days, and the birth of both of her children. She is an amazing women! She has two children who are autistic. Her life is so busy, to say the least.
She called me yesterday to tell me she had bought a groupon for some type of infared sauna. I laughed, because she is always trying crazy things. She proceeded to tell me that when she was reading the brochure for what it was good for she saw crohn’s and rheumatoid arthritis. I said really well I will do some research. She says well I got you a week free pass! You can try it and see if it works. I am not sure if I will try it or not, the point is she wants to make be better.
It’s friends like this that are few are far between it seems. It is not the quantity of friends, it is the quality. Just wanted to share that.
Okay, today has been a pretty good day. I haven’t spent the day totally in the bathroom, which to me is awesome. These storms moving in are effecting my RA and I think I am getting a migraine. The brighter side is I feel so blessed to be alive! The 16th of September will mark my 40th Birthday! I have been ask many times lately if I was upset about turning 40…my response is there was a time in my life I didn’t think I would make it 30 so NO I am not upset. I feel blessed for everyday I have on this earth. I sometimes wish people could see the world through my eyes and slow down and enjoy the small things in life. My daughter is a Senior in High School this year. I try to tell her to not want to grow up so fast.
The only thing I am sad about turning 40 is this will be my first Birthday without my Daddy. Not that he was the most amazing Father, but he was my Dad. I see people take there parents for granted or not visit…don’t do that. (I’ve done it to) God blessed me with the best last day with my Daddy I could have ask for. It was like I was his little girl sitting on the edge of his bed talking and he was holding my hand. That was awesome! As much as I do miss him I am so glad he is in Heaven watching down on me.
I am new at this blog thing so be patient.
Well today is a big step for me. I am not one to talk about my Crohn’s or everything that goes along with it. I decided to try a new approach so that I could purge my emotions and hopefully help someone else not feel so alone.
I was diagnosed in October of 2000. Before age 25 I had 2 small bowel resegs and a complete hysterectomy. (joy) Life is good right now. As I am sure you know it is minute to minute. The earlier you learn to embrace that statement the better off you are. It has taken me awhile…I am not sure I would even know who I was without being sick.
You see I was Bulimic/anorexic from 1991 til… Well my last treatment was in 1999. By the Grace of God I am good with that illness.